there's always a rainbow...somewhere

Dark days are over. Thank you so much for everyone's support. All the encouragement when I feel extremely low. All the words that helped me to have faith and determination again. I love you all darlings !!!

I don't know how days ahead will turn out. Its really hard to get back on my feet. But nomatter how tough it is, I've done it once. And I will do it again. This time, even better. There's just one more trip this holiday - Jakarta ! and I'll be on full speed to achieve what I aim to do.


I did not even look forward to my birthday cause of all that has occured. But looking on a brighter side, its not the end of the world. I've got to work hard ! And I've got to make it happen. Everyone's looking on me now. I've got to make all those love ones of mine proud.

Will be back to write bout my trips.

Til then !

Starting of Chapter 22...

So one year has passed me by and once again it is the time of the year for me to celebrate my existence in this world. It was last year that my parents organized a party for their very first daughter turning 21. It was also my farewell to start a brand new life miles away.

The journey was really hard. The new environment. The difference in studies. The people I came across with.

I told myself that I’ve really got to enjoy being 21 ! It was my freedom year after all. Maybe its true when they say you should never wish for something cause wishes do not come true. Indeed, my 21^st year was the toughest year so far.

But it was through all these obstacles that I grew into a much more matured person with a better mind set in things. Being away from mum and dad really built me up to being independent. And with all the “funny” experiences I had to go through, I am proud of who I am.

It was tough. But I pulled through and became a better person in life.

Its a couple of hours before I start writing 22 in the column which states birthdate, instead of looking forward to it, I’m actually backfiring. Things just have to happen so suddenly that I nolonger know what’s the meaning of this life.

Why is it that everything have to be WRONG?

I nolonger understand where this life of mine is leading me to. All my nightmares seem to be haunting me once again. And I’m stuck. I’m lost in a world I use to know.

I have two choices definitely, to deal with it and move on and make sure I DO IT WELL just like before or throw it all back. Looking back will never help but facing it seems to be the hardest thing to do.

dinner @ Sheraton, Subang

It feels weird when we start talking bout our future together. I definitely look forward for a future with him, but it just makes me feel that I'm getting older. I'm beginning to move away from mum and dad's protection.

Slowly starting a world of my own.....our own I suppose.



This is probably the very first time I am feeling so certain of something. Nomatter what others say, my trust for him has never changed. We use to always argue bout trust, he use to always think that I do not have trust in him, but that's partially my fault.

The insecurities in me tend to take my senses away and each argument we end up with is always got to do with trust. It gets really hard at times because of my deterministic side. I do not show my unhappiness. Instead, I am determined that people around me would realize something is amiss. Or understand why i react that way.



The fact is, noone is perfect. And they can never read your mind ! You want something, tell it to them ! Playing games with guys will just cause you to end up hurting yourself. They do not know what you want !

Go straight to the point ! Make things clear ! And most importantly, sharing is caring.

I love this boy of mine ! Whether he is mad, or frustrated, or pissed, or gobbling down his food and then complain he's extremely full, or falling asleep and start snoring while we're watching a show, he never fails to put a smile on my face.

Thank you for putting so much effort just to be there for me. Its been a great journey so far. Looking forward for our plans to come to reality. =)

I love you.

We choosed the ugliest on purpose !

Shopping hasn't been very productive lately. I get frustrated pretty easily over things I see in the mall as they do not seem to attract me at all ! My poor boyfriend has to put up to my tantrums all the time.


I really think I am falling out of my shopping sense. I use to love walking around malls but now, I seem to get annoyed with the amount of people around and the hot weather during my flea market evenings makes things even worst !

Age is kicking in.....

its curly !

I am officially BORED ! My last 8 months has been so hectic, now that its time for me to take some time off to relax before another crazy 4 months ahead of me, I can't seem to adapt.

I did the first couple of days. I was happy with my stress-free life. Met my dentist. Sent my lappy for her check up. Had quality time with our new dog so that he stops barking at me each time i get home! Spend some time alone in the malls. Rewarded myself with a nice facial treatment and finally visited the saloon after what seems to be a year cause I nolonger could stand my very dry hair !




It all was well of course ! But knowing myself, I am not a person who can stand feeling relaxed for long. I can't sit still at home watching TV or lay around and REST. I need to go out ! I need to move around ! I need to run around and get my hectic life back !!!

It feels really weird to wake up each morning, staring up at my purple ceiling knowing that NO, I do not need to rush to uni. Nope, I do not need to report myself at Synergy. And no, I am not on shift at the restaurant either.




I miss my bunch very very very very much. Things just seem worst with the fact that my poor boyfriend works 6 days a week ! Sometimes 7. =( Can't wait for my Redang trip with him. I use to not understand why some of my friends always say its hard to adapt when I try my very best to be there for them each visit of theirs back here. Now I do. I really do.

I use to know this place so well. It all seems very different this time. It really sucks to feel that you've drifted.



and you...if you're reading this, I miss you very very very very very very much. Was sitting in Starbucks the other day with my lappy infront of me, just reminded me of the days we use to spend doing assignments together. FYI, I had the worst drink ever the other day. *YUCKS* Will be waiting for your reply. =)

back to a place I use to know so well

Maybe I've changed.

hello winter :)

I keep reminding myself to bring my camera along as there's so many beautiful trees to snap as I stroll along the river towards uni. Yes. Despite living in the city and taking at least an hour to reach uni by legs, I still walk ! =) Obviously I miss my camera ALL THE TIME.

Its lovely by the river. Of all four weathers, I would say, autumn was the best ! The weather gets chilly most days but its just absolutely perfect. The trees changing color and leaves all over the ground. Its probably frustrated for those in charge of keeping the pathways clear. They have ALOT to sweep each day.

I would be if I had to. But I still prefer this over Spring.

We're at the start of winter now. So glad I'm gonna be away throughout the coldest periods. I use to love winter. Love wearing all the layers and huge jackets. Gloves and scarfs. All covered up to protect from the cold. But when I've experienced it for real, I tend to dislike it. Despite all the layers and gloves, I still feel cold !!!!!!!

Its gonna be 7 degrees when I leave Perth. And probably 30 degrees when I arrive home. Hopefully my body will adapt. Don't want to be quarantined !